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Tuesday November 10 2015 - LJ: Ultimatum	Passion for wrestling
The first boyfriend I met knew about my interest for wrestling. Let's call him LJ. He didn't wrestle at all. He did tell me he was ok with me meeting people, traveling the world and wrestle guys while I was in a relationship with him. Deep down, he thought that wrestling was perhaps a fad that would go away... that it would simply dissolve or disappear with time. Unfortunately for him, as the years went by, my passion for wrestling just kept increasing and I would wrestle more and more. Each time I would return from a wrestling trip, I would see him slightly hurt. I tried to console him and tell him that I will always come back to him. Four years went by and my boyfriend finally sat down with me. He gave me this ultimatum: - "It's either wrestling or me." These are words that I would always remember... It was a tough decision, but I knew that if I was committed to this relationship and no longer be able to wrestle ever again, I would feel miserable for the rest of my life. This probably also meant that I would have to throw away this website. There wouldn't be any sense for me to not wrestle anymore and still have a website to drool over the many wrestlers I can meet. No, I wasn't ready to leave everything I had built, cherished and desired over the years. I told him I still wanted to wrestle. Mind you, we stayed friends afterwards and he did tell me regretting breaking up with me. I told him not to look back. That if he hadn't break up with me, maybe I would have done it because my wrestling passion was tearing us apart. Maybe 10 or 20 years from now, my needs for wrestling would change ... I am telling myself that if I was to settle down with a boyfriend, then he needs to have a passion for wrestling as well and that we would wrestle each other on a regular basis. The wrestling community is pretty small though and finding that soulmate is like finding a needle in a haystack. Nothing is impossible... maybe one day I will find this person. When LJ and I stopped our relationship, we continued living together for a while... and then about a year later, I met Be-Bear. Funny, my first relationship lasted 4 years and a half. My second lasted 3 years a half and finally, my last one lasted one year. As years went by, I knew exactly what I wanted and what I did not want. In the four years I spent with LJ, I managed to have a single bearhug... without heads. Yes, he was pretty uptight about his identity. Still, this is better than nothing.
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Date created:	2015-11-10
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